"The Good Work Award"
Thursday, my oldest, Bailey, came home with this award from school. Two emotions came to me...excitement because I am so proud of my daughter for working hard in school and doubt. The second feeling requires a little background. We decided last year to keep Bailey in the 1st grade again. She did okay, but struggled with some key issues last year. I had many tearful nights last year with coming to terms that both my daughters (I have one who is repeating kindergarten as well) were failing kindergarten and first grade. I thought this was the easy part of school. But finally I came to terms with it and my hubby and I both agreed it to be the best decision. So when school began this year I have high hopes and a knotted stomach. Will they do ok? Is there something wrong with them? What did I do? So Bailey's award is great, but did her teacher just give her that to boost her confidence? We both want a great year for her, so did she truly deserve it? Terrible I know, but I so want her to do well this year. My doubts were even more when I received a note from the teacher saying that she wanted to personally tutor Bailey every week. I should be thrilled of the personal attention she is receiving and I am. I am all for the tutoring, but the pride in me is questioning, "Is she already struggling again?" Her teacher hasn't shown any concerns and maybe just wants to make sure that Bailey's year is successful. I just want perfection for my girls, its wrong, I know, it is impossible, but I don't want them to struggle with anything. I love them more than anything. Enough of my rambling...